Thank you all for your wonderful prayers and caring responses. Yes, Kim had radiation only in her tongue. However, the tumor is back again in the same spot and it has spread into her neck and throat, actually causing her to have difficulty breathing.

She is home from the hospital today with some bad news. She knew that she would have a trach (probably for a good while), but the button that would be attached so she can talk does not work because of her flap. She cannot talk, and the doctors don't know if she will able to until the trach is gone.

ALthough we (my family) aren't sure what will be involved in the chemo treatment, Kim has agreed to talk to the doctor on Thurs. She has expert doctors who made very horrible mistakes, even her last doctor. I believe she is being treated at a Cancer hospital. This was her 3rd time there. I am unsure of the stage of the cancer, but we do know that it has spread and is very aggressive. She had her lymph nodes out when she had 2/3 of her tongue removed. It just seems like nothing has worked out for her.

I am questioning the quality of her life. She is 23 and can't talk, eat, or breathe normally. Is this any way for her to live? I just don't know if I can handle losing her. I've heard of so many miracles happening to other people and I pray that one happens for her. I was hoping that if she had a positive "I will not let this cancer get the best of me" attitude, she would beat this, but it doesn't look like there is any way to restore her hope. It really hurts me to watch her going through the pain. I even feel guilty. Although I would never want what she has (no one does), I feel like it should've been happening to me - her older sister, and I would gladly take it from her if I could.

I'm sorry to ramble on. Thank you again for all of your kind thoughts and prayers.