Brian,
This is my first time here and I found your letters interesting and informative. Of course I went from periodontist, to dentist to endodontist, to even a radiologist buddy of mine, but every one thinks that a fit, healthy 54 year old must have allergies or reflux, or something benign. Once I was diagnosed, I certainly went through many of the humbling experiences that you mentioned. Fortunately it has not been disfiguring, although I am skinnier with a lot redder neck than when I started. Lance Armstrong said that cancer was the best thing that ever happened to him. I am not sure if I can go that far at present, but I will say that it has had many positive side effects. I never really knew how many people really cared about me, and showed it by offering to help me, whether in business, or with rides, etc. Furthermore, if this stuff doesn't give you some perspective on what is important in life, then nothing will.
Perhaps I am kidding myself since I just finished treatment this morning, but now I am having to deal with the real possibility that I may be returning to my old life of work, etc, not being a cancer patient or a disabled person after all. I was kind of getting used to the idea of not really returning to work, collecting disability, perhaps trying something completely different, like teaching ( I am a trial lawyer ), and yet, now, I realize that I might be going back, essentially, to my old life. I read an article that said that these are common anxieties. Gosh, I might not get to be a martyr after all! Certainly, life will be different than before no matter what...for one thing my ex wife has become so kind and considerate!!
Anyway, I enjoyed your letters and wanted to throw in my two cents.
Dan G.