It sounds to me like your angry that you got this cancer instead of "someone that smokes" and are not looking to lash out at smokers. That makes no sense. A smoker doesn't "deserve" cancer anymore than a nonsmoker does. It's that simple really. It's very, very easy to judge someone else from the other side of the room but I suspect that we ALL have our vices in life. I know my grandmother cannot function with out her cup of tea first thing in the morning. No different a feeling then smokers have, no different an addiction. Only difference is that tea isn't a carcinogen.
Whether or not someone else smokes has no effect on your cancer so why waste emotion and energy on it by judging them?

SCC Left Mandible. Jaw replaced with bone from leg. Neck disection, 37 radiation treatments. Recurrence 8-28-07, stage 2, tongue. One third of tongue removed 10-4-07. 5-23-08 chemo started for tumor behind swallowing passage, Our good friend and much loved OCF member Minnie has been lost to the disease (RIP 10-29-08). We will all miss her greatly.