It has been a beautiful day here in Virginia, and Tom improved much today. We just came in from our evening prayers - and watering the BOOMING pink roses! I like to think that each bloom is a new prayer for all of you here.
Thank you for the 'pep talks!' Danny, thank you for Lynn's photo - it helped a lot because I focus so much better when I can 'see.' Larry, I took your advice and did a search for 'Lynn,' and I can read that she was a strong woman with a lot to give. I am finding my way around this amazing website slowly but surely - - and discovering so much important information along the way. Whoever is responsible for designing this site should win an award!
It is interesting that I seem to make it through my 'normal' day pretty well, and although Tom is never out of my mind, I can focus pretty well on my work until someone asks me "How is he doing?"
I do, honestly, keep very upbeat, and I try very hard to impress on anyone who will listen how important it is to be ever watchful for changes in their mouths, throat, neck.....
I was, I guess, noticeably disturbed the morning after I read about Lynn's passing. A friend asked what was wrong, and I said how devastatingly horrible it was to think that so young a woman would die from this - and that it scared me for all of you - and for Tom. She suggested that I NOT VISIT THIS SITE. I promptly told her that this site has become my lifeline and a pillar of my support system smile
Couldn't leave you all if I tried! And this after only 'knowing' you all for a month! smile
BTW - I found an herbal sleep aid that is wonderful! Called Deep Sleep.....what a relief! I've actually been able to sleep for more than 2 hours at a time!!
Love and prayers for all of you.
Nicki


Nicki, wife of Thomas
dx July 2004, SCC, Stage 4 Tonsil. Tx begun 8/4/04. Cisplatin/Xeloda x 4; IMRT 7 wks, 8/7 - 10/25/04 Modified Radical Dissection (right), Selective Dissection (Left) 12/10/04.