Danny, You have a right to be angry. We all do. This is a nasty disease. We can only live one day at a time, and one moment at a time. Don't waste a moment on anger or depression. That isn't what got you through the first time, and it won't help you this time, either. When I am down, I pray for the Lord to take my burdens from me and remind me of his unending love for me. He invariably does this, usually through someone close to me, a family member, fellow worker, friend, church member. Once I turn the issue over to Him, I always physically feel the burden being lifted from my shoulders and my outlook improves immeasurably. Praying to the Lord is something I do every night and it makes me feel very much more relaxed and better. You are in my prayers every night. And I know the Lord has a plan for me, and part of it is to pray for you and others on this board. Please, as much as you can, throw away this anger and let others deal with it. Then you can concentrate on what is most important to you.