i have those same feelings but you have to stay positive and fight put your faith in god radiation therapy is a bitch when i had it last year there were days i swear i was going to die i felt dead inside it was horrible but i have to tell you it will get better once its over but i will tell you it is hard a person once told me if god brings you to it he will bring you threw it take care hang in there we are all pulling for you

30yr WM ,2003 dx oral squamous cell ca of tongue had lesion removed on lt side of tongue and 9 nodes 1 node pos. had 36 treat. rad therapy 2004 had lesion growing on lt base of tongue had partial glossectomy with skin flap taken from left arm