Hi Cindy,
What a wonderful wife you are! I can only imagine how difficult it is to be "on the side-lines" while your life takes such a wicked twist. I really believe it's extremely important for you to vent all of the feelings you have. Don't feel guilty about saying that these last few months have been lousy. Try to understand also that it's certainly very healthy to feel anger and frustration besides feeling sad; if you're feeling any of that too. It's probably been several months since you've had any time for yourself and in times like these, a caretaker should give themselves back a little of the loving care they give to their loved ones!
I am only four days away from the end of my radiation therapy for cancer of the larynx and I'm already preparing to give myself about six months before maybe I'm close to the old me. My "ENT" just told me last week that I might expect pain for four to six weeks after radiation stopped. One thing I think is good for all of us to remember is that at least we are fortunate to be recovering! There's an old adage, something about "all GOOD things comes to he who waits." Tell your husband total recovery (a good positive thought) will be worth all of this. Best wishes, Lynn