thanks guys, I'm still thinking about it, amd looking at my papers I just "found out" my cancer was at stage 1 and not 2 (the number 2 is referred to what we call "grade", the type of cancer), which is already a good thing, of course.
I'll see another doctor today, but I don't think seeing too many would be a good idea, and I also should stop reading studies and stories on the internetbecause I'm really getting obsessed here. Before this amlethic radiation thing I was doing quite well, eating and working from home and feeling "normal".

woman, 32 y/o, 7/07 Squamous cell cancer stage 1, G2, N0, T0 - 8/07 partial glossectomy, neck dissection (all lymph nodes and 1 tonsil negative, 2,5 cm margins negative). Doubtful about radiation, I have had different opinions from the doctors.