Christine, you've been so generous with writing all that you have written.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Monday, I see my psychiatrist. You see, my first risk of early death is actually suicide. Second cancer. Third a vascular event. I really don't know how much fight I've got left in me, considering I am not without considerable mental challenges.

So far, I've called a crisis line and have told two friends and you all here on this forum. I haven't told family, as it's the holidays and my mother would crumble.

I'll write more tomorrow when I have more time and am alone; however, I will come back on tonight to see if there are responses to this thread.

Thank you ever so much!