I feel exactly what you do. It's a bit hard sometimes to trust the docs. Are they just in this for money? Ever notice that both of the only AMA approved cancer treatments CAUSE cancer?? Anyway, that being said, I am on my 3rd of 30 radiation treatments for salivary gland cancer and I have done a TON of research on head and neck cancers. I do believe that the only thing to do if we want to live, is to follow the doc's advice and as much as it sucks, follow their recommendations to the letter. I don't trust the system and I am not even sure if I trust my team of professionals totally yet, but I do know that I need to go through with this treatment, despite hating it. I wish you the best and a smooth treatment!!