Well, I had my neck CT and am getting the results on Friday at my first appt at the Cancer Center. I worked last night (RN, Emergency Psych Unit). Well, it's all starting to sink in now. Some of my coworkers are clearly uncomfortable. I don't really care, I have my own crap to worry about right this minute. I am worried about what the scan might show. I don't want my throat involved in any of this. For some reason, that creeps me out more than the rest. I also realized that I could very well not be able to sing anymore. I do it just for fun, I'm no Barbara Streisand. I guess I have been starting to feel sorry for myself. Like PJE said, "holy crap, I have cancer."
I am trying to focus on getting my stuff in order and taking care of things prior to any treatment to make things go more smoothly. Thanks to everyone for the support and encouragement. Denise