Hi David, Good to hear from you. Most of the time I am ok, but occasionally go through the above rant. And you're right, I started this when I was 63 (ahem - excellent shape ie good immune system and very healthy and good weight) and now at 67. I have to work a lot harder to be what I was. And you're right ("the hell with cancer") at least I am still walking and talking and eating and drinking and around family and friends. Yah for that!!!! By the way, someone told me that Dr Trotti had retired. Right after my treatment, he did get sick and was out for a long time. I spoke to Karen several times, but she never said why. If anyone knows, you do.