Life, I've learned is never the same for caregivers, either. There is always that "waiting for the other shoe to drop". The main reason I keep coming back here is because I have learned and continue to learn so much from people like Christine and Uptown and so many others I've come to know on this forum. It takes practice to push away from too much looking back, but it is doable. Taking care of whatever can be done is a good thing but stewing over what cannot be done only robs you of all the good that can come to you and the joys you can experience from being with the people you love. As a parent, I can understand your 92 year old father's concern about your health issues. Perhaps you could help each other to think about the joys you have shared and those still to come?