Ha! You are in my head. That's my motto "plan for the worst and hope for the best" my RO said I know too much. I threw my motto and him, and he said that sounded good. I have anxiety attacks and cry a lot. I vision myself just writhing in pain with no relief and barley being able to function. I imagine every waking hour will seem like eternity, until I can get to the next day. So, I suppose anything less than that I will be grateful for. Again thank you for the support, I have a feeling I will be asking you for some more of it in the future. smile

Nancy (53 at dx)
Metastatic SCC. Stage III. HPV positive with occult primary. N1, no ecs
7/1/11 - L-Selective neck dissection. Tonsillectomy. All clean. No rad, no chemo.
5/29/13 - Found primary
7/3/13 - TORS
7/8/13 - Emergency Surgery/Blood vessel burst in throat
8/9/13 - Peg in
9/3/13 - Radiation starts 30 IMRT, 60gy BOT, 56gy both sides of neck
10/14/13 - Radiation ended!
11/12/13 - PEG out!