My husband was diagnosed with SCC base of tongue, which had spread to the lymph nodes on both sides of the neck. A further tumour was found during surgery beneath the collar bone. He has undergone a radical, and modified dissection, 4 weeks chemo/radio therapy. I am just worried beyond belief. He virtually starved for a month as he couldn't swallow, and refused help from feeding tubes etc, as he was determined to deal with things his own way. He has now begun to improve, and is eating more everyday. He has thrown away his pain meds as he said they made him feel like 'shit.' I am relieved he appears to be on the mend, but...
We argue like cat and dog between tears. I can't deal with the sniping, and I feel it's destroying me and making me feel guilty for being healthy. I know he loves me, we have been together forever, but why is he doing this? Sometimes I want to run away so badly.