It happens, and is normal, especially after the holidays, and even after treatment when we are at our high points, and in fight mode, only to be let down wondering what do I do now? Some post to help others to help themselves or go to group H&N cancer meetings. Life is a roller coaster ride with ups and downs. I'm pretty positive also, but I don't go around with a permanent smile painted on my face, and like to keep it real, and so are my emotions. I hate rah rah, blah talk, and just need an ear to listen to sometimes, but the problem is, most people don't listen. If these downs become constant, interferes with your daily living or have life ending thouhts, maybe you need to speak with a professional, and some even needs meds or even to reduce them. Some meds for neuropathy I took are antidepressants, anti seizure meds, and felt better mentally without, so I stopped taking them. I guess they can effect everyone differently. A little exercise, fresh air does wonders for some. You may want to have blood work done also to see if you suffer from any deficiencies, some which can cause depression, that can be corrected.


10/09 T1N2bM0 Tonsil
11/09 Taxo Cisp 5-FU, 6 Months Hosp
01/11 35 IMRT 70Gy 7 Wks
06/11 30 HBO
08/11 RND PNI
06/12 SND PNI LVI
08/12 RND Pec Flap IORT 12 Gy
10/12 25 IMRT 50Gy 6 Wks Taxo Erbitux
10/13 SND
10/13 TBO/Angiograph
10/13 RND Carotid Remove IORT 10Gy PNI
12/13 25 Protons 50Gy 6 Wks Carbo
11/14 All Teeth Extract 30 HBO
03/15 Sequestromy Buccal Flap ORN
09/16 Mandibulectomy Fib Flap Sternotomy
04/17 Regraft hypergranulation Donor Site
06/17 Heart Attack Stent
02/19 Finally Cancer Free Took 10 yrs