Steve, I am so sorry you are going thru treatments again. They were bad enough the first time around! I do understand why you are considering your quality of life. Its not easy being sick all the time. It makes you rethink everything and the reasons why you are going thru it. Just remember when doing treatments they are temporary. You will return to your old self soon after you are finished. In the whole scheme of things this is a small bump in the road (even though it sure doesnt seem like a small bump now, it really is). Try to step back and view the big picture.

Ive gone thru OC 3 times myself so I know where you are coming from. The 3rd time I almost quit and did nothing. At that time I couldnt think of one 3 time survivor. Brian Hill convinced me that patients really can get thru 3 rounds of OC. The members of this forum helped me to realize I couldnt just quit without even trying to get rid of the cancer. It was a very long road for me with my disfiguring surgery and year of recovery but I did it. Looking back, I would have done the same thing again but at that time I never would have believed I could do it.

I can only hope you will find some resolution to finish what you started. It will get better and even with limitations you can go on to lead a productive life. It may be different but you can learn to adjust. Please give it another try! Just in case you wont, Im in your corner anyway.

Best wishes with everything you decide!!!