Well everyone, thank you for yur kind and encouraging words. I'm just so anxious. My husband and I both agree we want to get to the 5th and get this surgery over with so that we can begin the act of healing and recovering. Reggie is calling me a maniac right now. I can't sit still. I can't focus. I have lists laying all over the house of things I don't want to forget to do or take on our trip to the city for the surgery. He says my list have lists. I think I'm totally bonkers right now. Got some meds from the Dr. but said it would take 30 days before I could start to calm down. It's part of my DNA to try and hurry up and fix things right away. Out of my control I know. I think even God is telling me to chill out. It's just hard. Thankfully this week is a holiday and we are going to see our daughters and the grandkids. I really pray that will take my mind off the ugly stuff.