I am so scared this time around. This third reoccurance has me stunned and numb and this time just chilled to the bone. Not only is this my husband's third occurence of cancer is 5 years but he also had a major heart surgery in June. They replaced his aortic valve and did a CABG 4. I worry how much more his body can take. His spirit is good, mine not so much. I know I have to keep fighting and so does he...I just am at a point where I ask,"how much more?" I really need to talk to someone. If anyone has an idea as to what I can do please help. I talk to god alot but now it doesn't seem to comfort me anymore....


Bette/CG to husband Reggie 66

dx 1: SCC Soft Palate (12/06)
tx: chemo and rad

dx 2: SCC 6 cm tum rt. vocal chord (12/09)
tx: total laryngectomy with stoma, 2 nodes

dx 3: SCC 4 cm tum BOT (10/16/12)
Tx: partial gloss w/ mod deck dis 4 nodes incl. part. pharyngectomy