Bette - Being a caregiver does get pretty scary and we all need someone to talk to or to feel not so alone. Sometimes just getting your thoughts down helps to keep them from swirling around in your head. Maybe you could check with the hospital where your husband is being treated to see if there are support groups where you could meet in person with others going through similar experiences. Or perhaps talk to your doctor about what you are feeling to see if he might be able to prescribe something to help relieve some of those anxious feelings. What helped me when my son was in treatment, was keeping busy and just going one day at a time - sometimes it was just moment to moment. I can tell you that for me, just coming here to vent or express my fears was a lifesaver and it helped me to hold things together and to help my son. So do come here often, - there will always be someone to listen or offer an idea or two. Think about taking a break as Cheryl suggests. It does help and if you can take time to care for yourself, it will make you stronger to be able to continue giving your husband the excellent care that you have been giving him.