Hi again!

I figured you all probably missed me so I better post an update. (I'm kidding by the way, I find it amusing to over-exaggerate my importance.)

Anyhow, my appointment with the oral surgeon is in 7 hours. I was able to find a co-signer for the care credit, so I can afford a biopsy if we decide to go ahead with it. I'm as happy as anyone who is about to get cut can be, just because there is some promise of discovering what is (or, god willing, isn't) wrong with me.

I think I mentioned before that I found a journal I had been keeping starting back in July when the ulcer in my mouth first appeared. I have copied and updated it with every symptom and timing I can remember, as well as made a list of my medications for the appointment tomorrow. I just want to be able to answer any question I am asked. I have had issues with articulating what has been happening to me and realize that I had better start keeping good records. My symptoms seem so scary to me, yet when I try to explain them I wind up feeling stupid because they seem so vague and scattered.

Rereading what I wrote has made me realize that I should have had a biopsy back in August. I'm astounded given my symptoms that this wasn't suggested to me by a single doctor even after five plus rounds of different anti-biotics with no improvement. Back then cancer wasn't even a thought in my mind, and apparently in any of my doctors' minds either.

Sorry I am always so long winded, but I really don't have anyone to talk to about this right now and it really helps keep me in the right frame of mind to take the steps I need to and not shift into all out panic mode. Thank you for allowing me to blab on, and please don't feel any obligation to humor me in any way.

Anyway, I mostly just wanted to share that I will be able to afford the biopsy and I am so glad that I am finally in a position to at least get some answers. Of course, whether you like it or not, I will update you along the way. Thanks to all for your time and patience and be well.