Christine,

Thanks for responding. I was in a very emotional state earlier and have since calmed down some. I know I have to get help, and now, I am just trying to figure out how to do it and I feel like I just keep getting bounced around. I'm not trying to throw a pity party, you guys have your own concerns and worries and I definitely don't feel mine are any more important than anyone else's.

My panic is really just coming from the fear that I have that I am already too late. I know that I shouldn't jump to such dire conclusions, but I'm struggling with that.

I have been using the rinse you posted earlier, and appreciate the advice. I don't know if it will help or not but I will try anything. I have quit smoking, btw. Regardless of what is wrong with me, I certainly don't need to give my body any more reason to act up.

I agree that I need a concrete answer and that I need it now. Figuring out how to get that answer has been a different animal. I am working on several angles right now and am hoping I can get something done before next week is over. I don't care about the money, personally. I have never been big on material things. I just haven't had any money because I've had to miss so much work. I will find a way, it just isn't happening fast enough for my nerves.

As always thanks for the advice, I will get some rest and work hard this week to get an answer.