So a bit of news, the oncologist is a positive and no BS guy. Straight talking and actually nice (first nice one, I know this doesn't matter but it's welcome). Face mask and planning Thursday followed by 35 sessions. He supports my Dad's wish not to PEG. I don't, but it's not my tumor, and he assured us that he will be so closely monitored that he'll tell us when and if it's time to PEG. My Dad's choice, he deserves at least one

The shock/crying has morphed into total defense/rage which there's probably a folder on here for. I've been reading many of these folders, at times I need to back away but you have all built a very special place here...I am so thankful.