I have said many times that if i hadnt walked away from Robin when i did,i would never have had the strength to walk the last mile with him.Of course at the time i left we didnt know he would be dead within a few weeks,we didnt even know he was terminal.So somehow fate threw us a lifeline and his abuse reached a peak on my birthday countered with all the love from my friends and family and i snapped.If he hadnt got sick again so quickly,i dont know what i would have done,and i guess i never will maybe its just as well.