Hello Sherry: So glad you found this site. I am only two months out of treatment, nine weeks to be exact. This site has helped me enormously. You have come to the right place. I remember when I was making a big geographical move in my life (15 years ago) and a friend asked me if I was scared. I was but hadn't allowed myself to feel it. My friend told me, "If you told me you weren't scared I would have said you were a liar." (He said it kindly.) It made me realize how natural it is to be scared when you enter unknown territory. Your fear shows that you are in touch with your feelings and that is really good. Radiation, for me, was unlike anything else I have experienced. The first 2-3 weeks were okay. I didn't have many side effects. They say radiation accumulates and boy does it. The side effects kicked in after 3 weeks or so and are still with me two months after. But each week after treatment gets better. You will get used to the actual treatment. And you will do fine. You can do it!!! Post often and let us know how you are progressing. I send you healing thoughts. -Michelle