Hi Sherry
Start your own thread and then we can concentrate on your issues alone.

Just click into the introduce yourself topic and then have a look along the top left hand edge and you will see a tab called "new topic". Click on it, give yourself a title and then start typing with all your fears and questions. The good folk here will help you.

But here is something to think about for now ... your fear now is no where near as bad as the reality. Once you have the first dose of radiation under your belt and realise the procedure is fairly straightforward, you will feel much better in your ability to handle it. There are thousands on this site who have been through what you are about to endure and felt exactly what you are feeling now. Chin up - you will get through it.

Very best of luck and I will be waiting for you to start your own thread so I can share my pearls of wisdom with you in epic style (most of my posts go on and on and on ...;)