I actually forgot to say the most important thing:
Gordon's behaviour is absolutely normal - well, maybe not normal so much as common, as is your reaction to it all.

I have found the greatest comfort on this site, has been the discovery that Alex and I are not unique with our weird thoughts and behaviours - everyone else has them too.

I still don't get a lot of why Alex does what he does (or in his case doesn't do), but feel reassured that he is probably not suicidal just a horrible patient!

But if he tells me one more time how logical and rational he is ...