Alpaca,

One thing i've learnt since diagnosis is that NO ONE is garaunteed tomorrow whether they have cancer or not. In fact some one i know (16yrs old and healthy) recently passed away in a freaky accident with a 3 yr old!!! So we all have to live for today and enjoy what we have.

I think we all on OCF understands how you feel because no matter how positive we all try to be, we will still have days where the fear and worry will get us. But the trick is to not let fear take control of what we have. Live for today and tomorrow will take care of itself.

And i agree with everyone about statistics - they mean crap all. I have never asked about my chances of survival or reoccurrences because no one knows which end of the percentile you will fall into. You could fall into the 80% or you could be the 20%, who can tell you which one you are going to be in. And as we have found out on this forum, many many have beaten the odds!!!

I hope you feel better soon and have yourself a merry christmas.

Minh

35 Yrs old
03/10 SCC T1-T2
Partial Glossectemy end March - margins not clear enough.
While waiting for resection - cancer returned,2 new cancerous lumps
Re-section End May & flap from cheek attatched. Margins clear.
Mid June - 4 teeth out
Mid July -32 Rads and 3 Cisplatin
6th Sept 10 Finished Treatment!!