Alpaca,

You can't live your life waiting to die, you have to LIVE! So many kudos to you for getting a job, you're going to be fine and I'll bet no one will even notice your slight speech defect (unless of course you're teaching elocution or something!).

The limbo is hard though, I agree. People tell me I'm 'fine' too but there is always that little niggle of doubt in the back of my mind, always. I do think being a cancer survivor is a very lonely place sometimes and that's why having a forum like this one is so very important.

- Margaret

Stage IV SCC lt lateral tongue, surgery 5/19/08 (partial gloss/upper neck dissection left side/radial free flap reconstruction) IMRT w/weekly Cisplatin & Erbitux 6/30/08, PEG 1 6/12/08 - out 7/14 (in abdominal wall, not stomach), PEG 2 7/23/08 - out 11/20/08, Tx done 8/18/08
Second SCC tumor, Stage 1, rt mobile tongue, removed 10/18/2016, right neck dissection 12/9/2016
Third SCC tumor, diagnosed, 4/19/2108, rt submandibular mass, HPV-, IMRT w/ weekly Cisplatin, 5/9 - 6/25/2018, PEG 3 5/31/2018