Seth,
Have you seen any improvement over the last couple of weeks? After our conversation, my wife reminded me that my attitude did not improve overnight. What at one time would have been considered "normal stress", I found very difficult to deal with for quite some time afterwards. I started taking Wellbutrin at about 6 months after my treatment and surgery ended. That seemed to help me push thoughts a little further away from me. I then tried to allocate a "time of day" where I allowed myself to deal with these thoughts. After awhile I found positive feelings were becoming more frequent. Try not to be hard on yourself for feeling this way. Most of us have shared the depression and can understand what you are going thru. Acknowledge the moments that you feel good and reach out to others when you don't. Winter and holidays are especially hard. Hang in there.
All the best,
Rob Jaffe