Nate - I hope you read this - you remind me so much of my son. He only posted a very few times and then just couldn't anymore because he said it depressed him so much and I know it did because I could see and feel his pain. We all have our own way of healing and you need to do whatever it is that works for you. I think what helped Paul was that I could still come here and when I saw something positive that I thought could help him, I would just print it out and leave it for him to read whenever he felt like it. It was a tremendous help to me, too - because I got lots of good advice and I felt that people really cared about my son. I wonder if maybe your Mom or your girlfriend would care to join this forum so they could help you through the bad stuff as well as get support for themselves, too?
Michele - I'm so glad that you are doing a little better, Hope everything continues to improve for you.