I second what Christine is telling you. Ask for other means of pain control to get you through this. DO NOT give up!
If you need to get the peg to get you through this then do so, just remember to keep swallowing!

I know that each minute of every day is a long process during this time but you can do it! I'm rooting for you!

Dx 3/27/09 @ 28 years old with High Grade MEC T4N2M0
Elizabeth, 33, mother of 3 girls (4,7, &8yrs old)
3 rds of chemo(Carbo/Taxol)
Rt Mandibulectomy, rt fibular flap,& rt ND with trach, picc,& g-tube.
30 rds of rads with weekly cisplatin
SCANS ALL CLEAR!
OCF Regional Coordinator of San Antonio Walk