Thanks Brian so much for that! You don't know how much I appreciate your responses. I know I'm frustrating others because I'm even getting on my own nerves. I have my CT scan today at 2:00. This has all been just so overwhelming. I tried to watch a movie and force myself to eat. I'm a very sick and scary skinny right now. I've always been athletic (distance runner) and was so looking forward to running outside this summer while my kiddo was away. He will be back at beginning of July and all my free time has been spent worrying. I'm trying hard to be still and not panic but it's so hard. I guess my fear is that I've read a lot but everyone's case seems so different and cancer is often times so unpredictable. I made the mistake of reading Stephanie's blog and it was beyond belief. I've read so much on this forum and feel informed yet still in the dark about how everything works. I'm terrified of the unknown. I know that I have no reason for the white spot to be in my mouth. I was also under the impression that if you were infected with HPV 16 or another high risk strand that it would definitely change into cancer one day. I guess I don't know a whole lot. I've read all of the studies online and they seem very bleak and scary. Thanks again for the post Brian. I'm sorry if I sound doomed but it feels that way right now.