Sharrone,

After my biopsy, I was a complete wreck the week before my results came in. I completely understand how you're feeling right now. After all the research I had done, I just knew that I had cancer. I have a bit of positive news for you though. I met with a Chemo Oncologist two weeks ago (I don't need chemo or radiation, but met with them to cover all bases). She informed me that she was ordering pathology to test my tumor for HPV. The Doctor told me that if in fact, it is HPV, the cancer is less likely to return.

During my time in "limbo" as Kelly referred to, I basically decided that my life was over and I literally began planning my funeral. I suffer from horrible anxiety too and have difficulty with "Let go and Let God". Well, it turned out that I had cancer. However, my cancer was Stage 1. Very good news! I had surgery to remove it and my prognosis is great. Not every case of cancer is horrible and deadly.

I guess I'm just trying to send some positive news your way. I've read most of your posts and I really empathize with your anxiety. I'm hoping you can find a way to calm yourself down a bit and ease your mind. (Watching the Golden Girls always helps me)

Take care,

Ashley