Hang in there Teresa...what a terrible thing! As a caregiver you know how much time and energy it takes for one and with the whirlwind you've gone thru you can't beat yourself up over this. I hope she had the same kind of outstanding caregiver you have been and that's all you can really hope for. I recently found out that two of my high school chums are fighting cancer as well. I hate this damned disease and understand your total frustration but you just can't be everywhere at once. Love and prayers for you and for her.(((hugs)))