i had a childhood friend that was diagnosed with ovarian cancer about a year ago. she got treatment. then around the same time andy was diagnosed, she was diagnosed with a reoccurance with brain cancer. i didnt go and see her because i was so consumed with andys diagnosis and the whirlwind of dr visits that followed. i basically forgot about HER during his treatments. she was admitted to MD Anderson during this time. i requested to see her at this time, but was told that she wasnt seeing ANYONE. I kinda understood this, since andy didnt want to see anyone due to his condition. andy eventually got better, she didnt. she was sent home 2 days ago to die. i feel so terribly guilty at this point, since i did not go and see her. i am inconsolible, split between andys recovery and her demise.
she is only 38 years old. how can this BEAST take her???? how can this be such a rejoycing time in my life for andy and be such sorrow in my life for my friend??? i am so split that it is driving me insane.
my hubby deserves all my happiness, but my friend is causing sorrow.
i am at a loss...