| OP   "Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts) 
 Joined:  Apr 2007 Posts: 794 |  Thanks.  I don't think it was anything major-though to me, even a drag is major.  She said she has only done it once and a while...which makes me think it could be more often, but I don't know.  I don't know if its a drag or a whole cigarette.  She told me again today she will never smoke again.  I don't like to be pacified, nor do I feel comfortable making judgements.  I'm scared.  I probably sound na�ve.  I feel idiotic because I just don't understand how someone who's tongue is falling off more from severe necrosis would do something like this-whether it be a drag or the whole darn cigarette.  She said that she has been so stressed, hungry and in great pain.  I couldn't respond, I bet I probably had a nasty look glaze over my eyes.  I don't want to be like this but seems I can't find control.  The other thing is now I am worried, what if she started something up?  I am mad as hell.  I will look into the vaporizer, that sounds terrific.  Thank you.   Donna
 CG to Mom, dx 4/25/07 with tongue cancer,T3N0,tx began 7/6/07, 31 tx's of IMRT, 8 cycles of Erbitux. Brachytherapy, surgery, left neck dissection and temp trach placed all on 9/17/07, trach removed 10/17/07. ORN of jaw, late effect of radiation symptoms. **lost my beautiful mother on 5/5/11.
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