Just a few minutes ago I spoke with my mom; dad took her out for breakfast and for the third time in a row she couldn't eat. Would it be ok for me to scream out maybe its from smoking?? I am so upset today. I literally can't calm down. When she was first diagnosed I was so frightened, today I feel pure anger. I look at all of you here and feel like I shouldn't be here, like her falling down makes me think I should give up. What's more is that I think my father has known about her smoking. I am so fracking mad right now and I don't know what to do with my anger. I refuse to be an enabler, don't know how to deal with any of this.