Jenka

I had to smile after reading you post. I can't remember if I put it in one of my early rants here at OCF or if it was a pre-OCF email update to friends but my version was:
"If one more person comes up to me in the hallway and says : oh, you'll do fine, you are such a fighter and so tough, I may just cold cock them with a right cross, knocking them down and asking: Tough enough for you?"
While it is not helpful to wallow in a self pity party, I have been posting more and more about what I term the "tyranny of positive thinking". From where I sit, it's just a sophistry of blame the victim. There needs to be a balance. My cancer did not come back because I harbored "negative energy", it came back because I won the genetic lottery for a radiation and chemo resistant variant. Like the country western song goes by Sugarland explains:

[quote] Now it's poor me, why me, oh me, boring
The same old worn out, blah, blah story
There's no good explanation for it at all

Chorus:
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over-think it
Let go, laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
The irrefutable, indisputable fact is
It happens[/quote]