You are NOT silly and we don't mind if you go on and on. That's why we are here. You are right, he is scared to death right now and while you understand it, you also have to be careful with his temper and be sure you are safe. I'm glad your family is supporting you as well as your Dr.
Keep in touch. Hope things get better.
Kathy

Kathy wife/caregiver to:
Kevin age:53
Dx 7/15/11
HPV16+ SCC Stage IV BOT/R
Non smoker, casual drinker
7/27/11 Cistplatin, taxotere,5FU 2/3week sessions, followed by IMRT 125cgy x 60 (2x daily) w/Erbitux weekly. Last rad 10/26/11. Last Erbitux 10/27/11
PEG placed 9/1/11 Removed 11/8/11
Clear PET 10/12 and 10/13 and ct in 6/14