Thank you all so much ! You make this easier to face and put a light at the end of a very dark tunnel. And even if i dont make it to the end of the tunnel and have to take an alternate route ( radiation later) I know that you guys will keep that light shining so i can come out of this. My Mom also flew in from North Dakota, so tha makes me feel good too! Jordan *Gil , I live outside of Amsterdam. Cooperstown is a beautiful place. I am going to get through this, I know that ..I just hate the idea of feeling crappy while i do LOL. My kids need me and I plan on being here to NAG them ( as they would say ) for quite a bit LOnger !!!!!!!