Thank you all so much for the feedback. I am so happy everyday that I found this site.

Anywho....I decided today I am going to Memorial Sloan Kettering for a 3rd opinion. I need a doctor who is going to take the bull by the horns and make some decisions. I'm not sure if I mentioned this but the day of my surgery (in hospital gown with matching socks, IV in, pee in cup and all) She asked how my pain was. At that moment it was fine, so I said it was ok. She said she wasn't sure if we should still do the surgery and what did I think. What did I think?!?!?! I think you're the doctor, you're the one that went to school for ages....can't you tell me if I should do it or not?!?!? So Ray and I both decided I should still do it. As it turns out she was happy we did it. What would have happened if I made the wrong decision? I feel like that is too much pressure. Has anyone ran into this? Am I too picky? I feel like this is something I should be picky about.