Steve.....Welcome to the world of humans....Who among us is perfect??...I've done the same thing, but I keep coming back bec. I occasionally have something to add, and I still am unsure enough of my status to know that I need to "belong" to this group. It's so full of caring, uplifting, courageous people that I just don't want to lose contact.  I think that I gain far more from it than I offer in return.  In my thanks for my current good fortune, I hope that I can be of some  help to someone else, but I worry that I am not regular enough to do that. 
Steve, welcome back, and don't add guilt to your other problems.  Let us help...again.  and return it to others when you can. XO