David:

I too would like to chime in and pay my respects. I am so sorry you have lost a friend. We can never understand what goes through someone's mind. I too have been tempted and it really is not easy. Everyone around me smokes and this makes the demon even harder to fight. Am still standing firm sometimes with one hand hanging on but come back. The addictions we face can sometime surpass our will and this makes no sense at any given time. The loss is great. I am sure you will remember your times with fondness and smile when you remember how she touched your life.