It seems it has been a while since I have asked a question. But I am having a problem and not sure if it is a misconception of mine or if it is real. It seems like people are getting tired of my recouping. It seems to be taking so long and it has become old news. The fact that I can't do things cause I am still sore is getting old. I am still doing things and it is getting better but I still have a long way to go. It is funny how soon people forget. People are lighting up around me forgetting or it isn't as serious any more. The worst of it is over. Not realizing that I am still scared of reoccurance. If smoking caused this and if smoking can increase my chances of reoccurance I am scared when they light up when I am in their car. I don't feel it is my right to demand or ask they not light up. They used to obstain now don't think about it. It was probably because it never used to bother me and I said it was ok once in a while. It's like "NO don't you light up!!" as they light up in front of me. I am having a hard time with it right now. I don't crave them nicotine is out of my system but I just want one now more than ever. It seems to consume my thoughts. This road has not been easy and while the people in my life love me I feel like they think it is over and done with. Man it is funny how quickly people forget or seem to..