Thanks for the pep talk Sue. I needed it.

I guess since all of this has happened things seemed to have calmed down a whole lot and I do not look that different people forget what I have gone through. It is not obvious...well it is to me..This is a good thing and am very grateful there has not been any real noticable scaring outwardly. Maybe this is the post surgery depression people are talking about. I don't feel depressed but something isn't right...But unless you live this I can immagine how difficult it would be to understand the healing process. It is more than physically I am now coming out of the fog. I have moments where I can't fathom what was done.

I was disappointed when the doctor said another six months before I could look at getting teeth back. Then I realize wow I am lucky but still am still impatient. I want the stiffness to go away the tightness, I want to be able to have my mobility back. I have not posted any of this because I feel so ashamed of how I feel. Here I am whining when I have so much to be thankful for!! There are so many people who have faced and are facing so much more. I don't like that either. I am also really scared as my doctor said there are no follow up cat scans to detect any sign of reoccurance. They only scan if there is something warrants it. How am I supposed to know what normal is?? I guess I didn't think I would ramble so much once I started. There must be more there than I realize. I think I am going to go and figure this out what is really on my mind before I ramble on too long...

Thanks for listening and supporting