One quote from "After Cancer Treatment" by Julie K Silver has resonated with me:
"We didn't choose cancer, it choose us. I don't think that any of us in this ever growing club, which initiates unwilling members are completely fearless. I wish that I could take away any fear that you have. I wish that I cold eliminate my own fears. But I know that I can't. Instead, what I suggest is to use whatever fear you have as a means of motivating yourself to do the best job that you can to heal. If you have to live with demons, make them work for you."
Best wishes