Sounds like you are having more of a personal thing going on there. I guess we put them thru some tough times along with us. I have no one hee but me, but I wish I had those problems too. You seem as if you would be fun to be around. I always was until this Oc hit and I must have gotten a new personality for a few months according to the one that lived with me. Everyone else sayd I was being normal for oc. Then she kept adding to them and believes they are true/. LOL I'll never know. I saw the surgeon that did my tongue rad seed implants today. He told me they had never seen anyone like me.. Rads and chemo and he said i went thru both like a breeze with no problems. I guess I was a 1st maybe. They hardly bothered me at all. Now even hair loss anywhere and I got blasted with those things. I hope things keep going uphill for you . Like they say. it all takes time.