Johnny:

Im so sorry your news isnt better. I do understand how scared you must be right now. A recurrance is a difficult thing to adjust to, especially so quickly after finishing tx. There are many people here who have gone thru a recurrance, myself included.

One of the most difficult parts of dealing with a recurrance is trying to see the positive. You are young and can overcome this. I remember your wonderful attitude from your first round of OC, that can help you with round 2. Your current life as you know it will change, you can beat this again and still live a successful life. It may be a different life and that can be a hard adjustment to make.

Here are a few thoughts that helped get me thru my recurrance. I did it once, now Im smarter. I know the hospital like the back of my hand. I know which friends and family members will help me and who will disappear like Im contagious. I now understand more of which doctor does what and who will always fit me in asap, what doctor will best guide me. I knew what pain meds worked and which ones were a waste of money. I understood my body better. All the medical terms werent so confusing anymore, I knew to ask questions and which ones to ask. I was an experienced survivor and I refused to let cancer beat me. I knew to ask for help and where to get it. I knew how to prepare for what was coming.

You know there is alot of support here. Wishing you the best with everything you have upcoming.