Jeff

I am fortunate never to have had cancer,but just being touched by the disease on a close personal level,has left me compulsive and obsessive about the damn thing.I cant even begin to imagine how you must feel,and i dont think it is surprising.They say knowledge is power,but they also say a little knowledge is a dangerous thing,which after your treatment is finished,is probably true,making every little nuance a potential threat.

On a lighter note Jeff,i am 54 ,and the memory thing is not indiginous to post chemo.Names and words i have used all my life evade me ,just this week i couldn't remember my pin number for my atm card that i have had for 25 years, that on the tip of your tongue thing is infuriating,but i am assured that it is all perfectly normal for women of a certain age lol.It serves as a constant reminder that our bodies are not designed to last for ever,no matter how invincible we may feel.

Jeff you are human and entitled to feel as you do,but if it becomes an issue,think about talking to someone.

love liz